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my heart tells me this,my head tells me the other.

my heart is feeling fear,sadness,confusion,reality and all kind of different agendas. The thing is now what is right now,or what is wrong now? As i walk down the streets of orchard i thought about you all day long again. Thats when i realise how naive i was,yet i cannot stop keeping my feelings in tact within my heart and head. I just feel like locking myself up in a room and never ever having to face the world again. Just my own little world where there will be absolutely no one to hurt me nor can i hurt anyone else. And i totally indeed just wasted my holidays just like that.Just rotting myself at home alll day long,i wanted to get a job but couldnt find one ); I dont want to live life with regrets i want to live with them full of happy memories,but yet somehow all the bad stuff just keep happening to me. Am i crazy or just jinxed?

And december,please be good. And im sorry if i ever hurt you,its just that i have no friggin idea wtf am i doing in my life right now.

Goodbye.